urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:spidy_is_life and thats all that matters i wish i had a rewind button everyday of my life. 2008-01-03T06:18:35Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:spidy_is_life:7264 2008-01-03T06:18:35Z 2008-01-03T06:18:35Z is to just be happy.<br />the thoguht process is creeping back into my head. i dont ever want it to completely take over again, but its good that its back..its a bit comforting. i was really sick over xmas, got down to 111 pounds..i was so close to 110, a numbner i hadnt seen in so long. but that day i finally had my appatite back, and it shows now on the scales. last night after major sushi dinner i was 118.5<br />this morning i was 117<br />its just sad<br />i can blow it so easily...<br />im going insane again<br />if i can just see the number 110 or even better, 109, i would be so thrilled. so, SO thrilled. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:spidy_is_life:491 2005-10-09T23:07:46Z 2005-10-23T05:09:28Z <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v234/i_dig_it_/mkfobanner.png" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br />[[comment to be added and to stay added]]<br />[Anxiety really does breed]